janneychatter

Last saturday, i had called up my mom from my mobile. I normally don't make international calls from my mobile. However i had ask her some information immediately, thus i did call. I was hoping that the call would last for a couple of minutes.
My sister picked up the phone , she recognised my voice and even before i could talk anything..." Pranam, did you get to know it.. grand-mom passed away this morning!!!". ... she was my father's mother. She was 87+ years old. I was a bit shocked!
That night while i was lying in my bed thinking.... i was feeling bad..very bad.. not bad for the reason that she expired (she was 87+, she was old and ailing.. immediate death is anyday better than long time suffering) but for the fact that i am not there next to my father to help him in this situation!... next moment i was thinking.." Today my father's mom has passed away... one fine day i will be in my fathers shoes!!!"... trust me thats the worst feeling one could ever get!!...i am scared... i am really scared of "that" day!!!!!!!....
May her soul rest in peace